tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2009-11-12:/Yorkshire lad living abroad wanting to stay in tune with Old Blighty. Keeping in touch with reality afore I go absolutely bonkers MokoFeed2009-11-12T14:17:29+01:00tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2008-02-27:/2008/02/27/out-of-hibernation-3786279/doddified2008-02-27T06:12:53+01:002008-02-27T06:12:53+01:00 <p>Sorry I have not blgged for a long time but now winter is nearly over I am waking up from my hiberation. LOL</p> <p>It as been nearly 3 months since I last blogged. Alot as happened since then. I last blogged about me and the wife separating and me staying in the house. In January, I moved out and into an apartment. It as been abit rough for everyone, the kids are doing alright but do not fully understand what is going on. The oldest keeps asking why I moved out,but how do you explain to a six year old what happened? One day, I will have to tell them.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2008/02/27/out-of-hibernation-3786279/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-12-11:/2007/12/11/separated~3425639/doddified2007-12-11T02:22:22+01:002007-12-11T02:22:22+01:00 <p><img src="/img/smilies/graycry.gif" alt=":`(" class="middle" border="0">My wife and I have now separated. We decided last weekend.<br> We have a room in the attic that we had built and I have moved up there for now. While moving my clothes out into the hallway closet, our daughter looked in the closet and asked her mam "What is daddy doing?" </p> <p>I sat down with our children and told them that mommy and daddy were not going to be married anymore. My daughter quickly realised what I had said and broke down crying and hugged me. I held her for about 30 minutes, her,me and her mother all crying. My son did not have a clue, he is only 4 and was watching TV.</p> <p>We are going to try and be room mates and see how it goes. If it does not work then I will move out and get an apartment, which will not be too far away from the kids.</p> <p>My daughter thinks that I am going to move far away and she would not be able to see me. I have told her that I will not be too far away if I move out. I felt she thought that I was going to go back to England.<br> I told her that daddy is not oing to go back to England and never will, as he is going to be part of their lives forever.</p> <p>Since Saturday, it as been abit rough but we are all doing alright. My wife is angry, mad and every other emotion you could mention at me, which I can not blame her for it.</p> <p>Life is going to change for all of us and it is going to be for the good.<br> (I hope)<img src="/img/smilies/graycry.gif" alt=":`(" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/12/11/separated~3425639/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-12-07:/2007/12/07/separating~3411513/doddified2007-12-07T23:52:02+01:002007-12-07T23:52:02+01:00 <p>I have not blogged for a long time as my wife and I have been having marital problems to the point that we are going to separate.<br> I am upset and sad about it but it as to happen. It is not her fault, it is mine. I have not communicated to her well and really have emotionally abused her, which is not a good thing to do. She has had enough. I do not blame her for this, I do not hate her I still love the woman.<br> We have 2 wonderful kids and I feel that they know something is wrong.<br> My daughter does not want me to go to work, she cries at the drop of a pin, very clingy at times. I have been trying to think what I will have to tell them when I move out. I have looked at an apartment complex that is about half a mile from where we live now, so I will be close to them.<br> My wife as stated that she will not be a mother who will not let her kids see there father. I am going to be still part of their lives as much as I can.<br> This is making me sad as I blog so I am going to end for now. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/12/07/separating~3411513/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-10-11:/2007/10/11/birthdays~3117143/doddified2007-10-11T02:40:26+02:002007-10-11T02:40:26+02:00 <p>Our son was born 3 days before my birthday and he just turned 4.<br> I can’t believe it has gone so fast!He was little (7lb 14oz) and squishy. Now he is a wall climbing, tear things up, and wiggly boy! We had all his friends over for a party in the back yard. We are real low key for birthdays, healthy snacks and we request no gifts, and it has always worked for us. That way, if the time ever comes and they want a “big deal” of a birthday, we have something to work up to<br> The birthday boy requested banana nut muffins for “cake". They were yummy! We also did our traditional meal at the Mexican restaurant they put a sombrero on him and sang Happy Birthday to him in Spanish and English. Gosh! Those folks are great.<br> We had a second party at Grandma’s where he was gifted a set of crocodiles. He immediately “gave” one to his sister and they have not put them down yet.They sleep with them, carry them with them shopping, and even out to eat. I love that my kids love animals, even the “less cute” ones!<br> Kids grow up really quick. It is true in the saying that "don't blink or you will miss something". So now, I do not want to blink anymore, as I want to watch them grow and have fun and happiness.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/10/11/birthdays~3117143/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-10-11:/2007/10/11/heifer_ranch~3117133/doddified2007-10-11T02:32:00+02:002007-10-11T02:32:00+02:00 <p>Today, we (my wife and kids)went to the Heifer Ranch, near Perryville,<br> Arkansas. It was a 45 minute drive but we made it in 40 minutes as we left the house late. When we got there, we watched a short video about two kids ( one in Indian and the other was in Uganda) It was interesting to watch as these kids we given the gift of life from Heifer International. After, the video we went on a Hay ride around the ranch. There were different animals to see, camels, water buffalos, llamas, etc etc. The last thing we did was to walk around the Tribal grounds, where houses from different countries were built. They were from Guatamala,Thailand,Africa,and a shanty houses which could have been from anywhere in the world.<br> We are homeschooling our children and this was a home schooling adventure. The kids really enjoyed it. The youngest who is 4 was tired after it all and on the drive home, he fell asleep.<img src="/img/smilies/graysleep.gif" alt=":zz:" class="middle" border="0"> Our oldest, enjoyed the hayride aswell as the youngest. My wife and I did too. </p> <p>If there is another adventure to somewhere like this or different, I will be going again with the family. I enjoyed myself which I have not done for a long time as i have not been able to go with my wife and kids on these trips.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/10/11/heifer_ranch~3117133/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-10-08:/2007/10/08/dicky_hearts~3105975/doddified2007-10-08T23:57:42+02:002007-10-08T23:57:42+02:00 <p>My sister in law may have to have open heart surgery. She has been feeling tired alot and putting on weight. After a visit to the doctor's she was told that she had Aortic Valve Stenosis, which was about 1 cm wide. This is size is not enough to push alot od blood through it to get to the rest of the body. She went and saw a Cardiologist who ordered an Echo and an Angiogram. The Echo confirmed the diagnosis but after the angiogram, the doctors were please with what they saw. She may not have to have surgery yet but be treated medically. My wife was upset about this which is right thing. </p> <p>Meanwhile, over the Atlantic, one of my younger brothers who visited us in March-June 2007, ma have to have heart surgery too. The day he left to go back to England, he collapsed in Dallas/Fort Worth airport. At the hospital, he was told that his heart rate was in the 200's wich is damn fast for an adult. The doctors gave him some medicine to get his heart rate down, it took two doses to bring his heart rate back to normal. Back home in England, he has had test after test to ran and been told he may have to have surgery. If he does, I do not know if I will go home to visit while he is in hospital or not. I will probably not go and keep in touch with the family by phone.<br> When it rains in ones family it pours down. How funny that at the same time, these two people are going through the same thin at the same time.<br> To both of them, I hope that they don't need to have surgery!!!!!!!! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/10/08/dicky_hearts~3105975/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-10-04:/2007/10/04/president_bush_is_a_wanker~3081595/doddified2007-10-04T04:52:09+02:002007-10-04T04:52:09+02:00 <p>The President of the USA has vetoed a bill that will stop children in hte USA from having health care insurance. The following are excerpts from Yahoo news:</p> <p>WASHINGTON - President Bush cast a quiet veto Wednesday against a politically attractive expansion of children's health insurance, triggering a struggle with the Democratic-controlled Congress certain to reverberate into the 2008 elections.</p> <p>Bush vetoed the bill in private, absent the television cameras and other media coverage that normally attend even routine presidential actions. The measure called for adding an estimated 4 million mostly lower-income children to a program that currently covers 6.6 million. Funds for the expansion would come from higher tobacco taxes, including a 61-cent increase on a pack of cigarettes.</p> <p>Me now blogging agian.<br> Was Bush too scared to face the US nation and explain why he vetoed this bill? I wonder if his kids were without insurance, what the F%^k would he do? Who cares about where the money comes from. The kids of America from lower income families have the right to health insurance.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/10/04/president_bush_is_a_wanker~3081595/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-09-27:/2007/09/27/what_is_britain_coming_to~3046085/doddified2007-09-27T04:22:38+02:002007-09-27T04:22:38+02:00 <p>I saw on the net today about the 11 year old boy,Rhys who was shot and killed by a teenager. He would have been 12 this month.<br> Has the country gone mad or what...<br> Where are people getting there weapons from?<br> When I was growing up, you felt safe but as time went on, it began to get<br> bad but not as it is now. AND what is the government doing about it?</p> <p>Man, I can not think about it any more...... </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/09/27/what_is_britain_coming_to~3046085/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-09-25:/2007/09/25/my_twin_s_gender~3038142/doddified2007-09-25T17:17:58+02:002007-09-25T17:20:06+02:00 <p>As I sit and plonder what gender my twin was at birth I have really not gotten a definite answer from anyone especially my mother.</p> <p>When I was 11; ths was when I found out that I was a twin. One of my brother's told me. I thought that he was joking till i asked my mam about it and they said that I had a twin but it was stillborn. I asked was it a boy or a girl, but did not get an answer from my mam. She did not want to talk anout it. </p> <p>As time went on and as teenager, I kept asking and still got no real answer, though someone told me they thought it had been a boy. Yet again, I asked my mam and still no real answer. At one point, my mother said that one of my uncle's knew and to ask him. At this point, i dropped it and left it alone. I was going to ask my uncle but he passed away, so I did not get the chance. </p> <p>I emigrated to hte USA and have been here 19 years and now the gender of the twin as surfaced again. One year, I went home on holiday and my family picked me up from Gatwick airport. We stopped at a halfway house on the M1 and was having breakfast,when my nephew who was about 11 then, chirped up and out of the blue said my twin was a boy. I looked at my mother and said " I does he know and I do not." She said nothing.</p> <p>I am seeing a psychologist for and the twin thing came up and was asked by him What do you want from your mother? I said that I just want her to tell me the gender and thai is all. If, she says she does not know then I will have to accept her answer and get on with life. I will probably not ask my mam again.</p> <p>Since 11 I have felt like I am not a complete person because of all this.<br> If it was a boy, we could have be identical. My GOd, another one of me walking around arrrgghh!!!!</p> <p>I will not make you suffer any longer about my saga, BUT turinig 45 today is a happy and not so happy day for me. I will have fun anyway with my wife and kids.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/09/25/my_twin_s_gender~3038142/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-09-25:/2007/09/25/birthday~3037797/doddified2007-09-25T16:14:26+02:002007-09-25T16:14:26+02:00 <p>Today, I turned 45. Another yesr older and wiser. Well older but no necessarily any wiser. My short term memory is f#^%ed up but long term, I can remeber things way back in the past.<br> Alzheimers must be settling in. LOL</p> <p>Have a great day everyone.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_surprised.gif" alt=":o" class="middle" border="0"><img src="/img/smilies/icon_mrgreen.gif" alt=":>>" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/09/25/birthday~3037797/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-09-25:/2007/09/25/stoeln_form_phoenix_s_blog~3035026/doddified2007-09-25T02:26:21+02:002007-09-25T02:26:21+02:00 <p>TEN FIRSTS<br> First best friend: A girl called Michelle when i was 5<br> First screen name: did not have one<br> First Pet: Was a mongrel called Rex<br> First Piercing: Never wanted to pierce my body but if I did it would be my belly button<br> First Crush: A girl named Wanda. She had hair like David Bowie<br> First Record: My first record was an ABBA album back in the 70's<br> First Love: Lisa - My frst best friend- Michelle</p> <p>NINE LASTS<br> Last alcoholic beverage: Corona Light<br> Last car ride: today on the way to work.<br> Last movie seen: The Queen<br> Last phone call made: Tonight, spoke to my wife and kids<br> Last CD Played: Queen Greatest Hits<br> Last Bubble bath: Can not remember it was that long ago<br> Last time you cried: I cried in like a big baby at the Psychologist office (I am abit crazy)</p> <p>EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS<br> Have you ever dated one of your best friends: No<br> Have you ever been arrested: No!<br> Have you ever skinny dipped: No<br> Have you ever been on TV: Yes<br> Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: Yep I have<br> Have you ever had a sex dream about someone: Yes I have.<br> Have you ever had sex? Who does not have sex? YES</p> <p>SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING<br> 1. blue scrub bottoms<br> 2. white boxer shorts<br> 3. t-shirt<br> 4. my bifocal glassess (an getting old)<br> 5. white socks<br> 6. my wedding ring<br> 7. work shoes</p> <p>SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY<br> 1. awakened by my 4 years old son whos does not have concept of time.<br> 2. turned on computer<br> 3. took a shower<br> 4. brushed my teeth<br> 5. had dinner with the familty<br> 6. Went to work</p> <p>FIVE FAVOURITE THINGS IN NO ORDER<br> 1. reading<br> 2. Listening to music<br> 3. sleep<br> 4. tickling my kids<br> 5. loving the wife</p> <p>FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO<br> 1. My wife<br> 2. Marie<br> 3. Dr. Long<br> 4. My sister</p> <p>THREE CHOICES<br> 1. Black or White: black<br> 2. Hot or Cold: cold<br> 3. Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate</p> <p>TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE<br> 1. Win lots of money<br> 2. Find out what sex my twin was.... which is another story</p> <p>ONE THING YOU REGRET<br> Even though I like living in hte USA, I regretted leaving my England and West Yorkshire.</p> <p>Thank you, Phoenix </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/09/25/stoeln_form_phoenix_s_blog~3035026/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-09-22:/2007/09/22/what_a_gaff_by_george_bush~3020498/doddified2007-09-22T02:22:19+02:002007-09-22T02:22:19+02:00 <p>Did any one read in the news about the President of the USA saying in a speech that Nelson Mandela was dead. Nelson is still alive. Bush is such a ditz that he always balls us what he is saying. Who is writing is speeches? Somebody better tell them to keep on doing the speeches, so Bush can look like a bigger idiot when he leaves the White House <img src="/img/smilies/icon_wave.gif" alt=":wave:" class="middle" border="0"> I did not vote for him in the last election and thank god he can not run for office again.<br> Hope he will be the last Bush in the White House?<img src="/img/smilies/icon_wink.gif" alt=";)" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/09/22/what_a_gaff_by_george_bush~3020498/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-09-18:/2007/09/18/change_of_name_on_blog~3001928/doddified2007-09-18T20:13:33+02:002007-09-18T20:13:33+02:00 <p>I have decided to rename my blog to Yorkshire Lad in America</p> <p>Hope everyone is having a smashi time where ever you live in this big blue world. </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/09/18/change_of_name_on_blog~3001928/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-09-16:/2007/09/16/watch_you_debit_credit_cards~2986858/doddified2007-09-16T06:06:56+02:002007-09-16T06:06:56+02:00 <p>Earlier this year some get stole one of our ATM credit/debit card. They used it and took over $500 from it. In the end, we were $1000 in the red and could not keep up with the bills etc, we had to claim bankruptcy.<br> In general, keep your cards safe and make sure if you use them that it is handed back to you.<img src="/img/smilies/grayupset.gif" alt=":##" class="middle" border="0"><img src="/img/smilies/icon_mad.gif" alt=">:(" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/09/16/watch_you_debit_credit_cards~2986858/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-09-15:/2007/09/15/stolen_from_moon_bunny_and_phoenix_s_blo~2982333/doddified2007-09-15T04:04:57+02:002007-09-15T04:30:29+02:00 <p>Two Names You Go By:<br> 1. Stevie<br> 2. Daddy</p> <p>Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:<br> 1 glassess<br> 2 my scrubs, am at work</p> <p>Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship:<br> 1 Love<br> 2 fun</p> <p>Two Things You Should Do:<br> 1 Listen more to my family<br> 2 take a long holiday</p> <p>Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:<br> 1 For work to finish<br> 2 To have a new car</p> <p>Two Things You Did Last Night:<br> 1 Worked till 11pm<br> 2 Then went home and crashed</p> <p>Two Things You Hated Today:<br> 1 My son waking up between 6-7am<br> 2 going to work</p> <p>Two People You Last Talked To:<br> 1 my wife<br> 2 Monica (work)</p> <p>Two Things You're doing tomorrow:<br> 1 Cleaning up the back yard<br> 2 Cleaning the front yard</p> <p>Two longest recent car rides:<br> 1 Little Rock to Memphis<br> 2 Little Rock to St Louis</p> <p>Two Favourite Holidays: (of all time?)<br> 1 Brazil<br> 2 Gambia</p> <p>Two Favourite Beverages:<br> 1 coffee<br> 2 diet caffeine coke (doctor's orders yack!!)</p> <p>Two Things That Would Surprise You About Me:<br> 1 I am shy at first and then open up when I get to know you.<br> 2 I shook hands with the ex President of Mexico</p> <p>Two Jobs I Have Had In My Life:<br> 1 Student<br> 2 RGN</p> <p>Two Movies I would watch over and over:<br> 1 Harry Potter movies<br> 2 Sister Act</p> <p>Two Places I have lived:<br> 1 Leeds<br> 2 Barnsley</p> <p>Two Favourite kinds of foods:<br> 1 Mexican<br> 2 Indian</p> <p>Two Places I'd rather be right now:<br> 1 home<br> 2 A tropical island</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/09/15/stolen_from_moon_bunny_and_phoenix_s_blo~2982333/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-09-12:/2007/09/12/anger~2965570/doddified2007-09-12T04:36:18+02:002007-09-12T23:28:36+02:00 <p>Today,I saw my Psychologist and we talked about anger that I have built up over the years and that I am like a time bomb ready to go off. I hold everything in,instead of talking about what is bothering me. I have always done this and am trying to open up slowly and let people know what I am feeling BUT it is hard for me to do it. When I was growing up, if we ever talked back to our parents you can bet that we were in big trouble for it and we got disciplined in one way or another. At times when I have told people what I am feeling I have been belittled and told that I am being daft.<br> So, I began to hold things in and internalised everything that now I can not release as I do not know what I will be like, or what will come out of my mouth or the bomb will go off. If I got upset with what somebody told me or I disagreed with them, I would not tell them what i was feeling. By processing everything, I would become angry and keep it inside and then let it slide till the next time.<br> So, I am having to, like I wrote above, anm having to slowly open up and to see haow it goes. Normally, when I do say what I am feeling to someone and it has built up over a few days etc, it comes out as anger and am being a smart arse.</p> <p>If any one out there as the same thing going on with them, what do you or are you trying to solve it.</p> <p>Life is short and we need to live it happily, enjoy the things around us and love the people you love the most, like wives, kids family etc.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_lol.gif" alt=":DD" class="middle" border="0"><img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/09/12/anger~2965570/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-08-29:/2007/08/29/what_is_your_favourite_song~2887309/doddified2007-08-29T04:05:55+02:002007-08-29T04:05:55+02:00 <p>What is your favourite song? Mine is Bohemian Rhapsody by Queen. They were such an awesome group and did great songs. It was ashame when Fredie Mercury died but their songs live on.</p> <p>The following is part of an article from Wikipedia:</p> <p>Bohemian Rhapsody" (help·info) is a song written by Freddie Mercury and originally recorded by the band Queen for their 1975 album A Night at the Opera. The song is in the style of a rock opera, and has a very unusual musical structure for a piece of popular music. Its six different sections have no chorus but both a cappella and heavy metal arrangements. Despite this, it was released as a single and became a huge commercial success. In addition, the song is widely hailed as Queen's magnum opus, and it marked a decisive point in the band's career and setting them on the way to become one of the world's most popular music groups. The single was accompanied by what is generally cited as a groundbreaking music video (then termed a "promotional video") which helped establish the visual language of the modern music video. The song was included in all of Queen's subsequent live concert performances and still enjoys great popularity around the world.</p> <p>Man the song is awesome and I can see myself somewhere in the words with what is happening in my life now. The lyrics are:</p> <p>Is this the real life?<br> Is this just fantasy?<br> Caught in a landslide<br> No escape from reality<br> Open your eyes<br> Look up to the skies and see<br> I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy<br> Because I'm easy come, easy go<br> A little high, little low<br> Anyway the wind blows, doesn't really matter to me, to me</p> <p>Mama, just killed a man<br> Put a gun against his head<br> Pulled my trigger, now he's dead<br> Mama, life had just begun<br> But now I've gone and thrown it all away<br> Mama, ooo<br> Didn't mean to make you cry<br> If I'm not back again this time tomorrow<br> Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters</p> <p>Too late, my time has come<br> Sends shivers down my spine<br> Body's aching all the time<br> Goodbye everybody - I've got to go<br> Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth<br> Mama, ooo - (anyway the wind blows)<br> I don't want to die<br> I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all</p> <p>I see a little silhouetto of a man<br> Scaramouch, scaramouch will you do the fandango<br> Thunderbolt and lightning - very very frightening me<br> Gallileo, Gallileo,<br> Gallileo, Gallileo,<br> Gallileo Figaro - magnifico</p> <p>But I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves me<br> He's just a poor boy from a poor family<br> Spare him his life from this monstrosity<br> Easy come easy go - will you let me go<br> Bismillah! No - we will not let you go - let him go<br> Bismillah! We will not let you go - let him go<br> Bismillah! We will not let you go - let me go<br> Will not let you go - let me go (never)<br> Never let you go - let me go<br> Never let me go - ooo<br> No, no, no, no, no, no, no -<br> Oh mama mia, mama mia, mama mia let me go<br> Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me<br> for me<br> for me</p> <p>So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye<br> So you think you can love me and leave me to die<br> Oh baby - can't do this to me baby<br> Just gotta get out - just gotta get right outta here</p> <p>Ooh yeah, ooh yeah<br> Nothing really matters<br> Anyone can see<br> Nothing really matters - nothing really matters to me</p> <p>Anyway the wind blows...</p> <p>Well, lets see what your favourite song is?<img src="/img/smilies/icon_biggrin.gif" alt=":D" class="middle" border="0"> </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/08/29/what_is_your_favourite_song~2887309/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-08-29:/2007/08/29/improving_my_blog~2887219/doddified2007-08-29T02:38:18+02:002007-08-29T02:38:18+02:00 <p>I am fairly new to blogging and I am wanting to know how to improve my blog.</p> <p>What suggestions do you have for me?</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/08/29/improving_my_blog~2887219/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-08-23:/2007/08/23/twins~2854678/doddified2007-08-23T04:59:44+02:002007-08-23T04:59:44+02:00 <p>I found out when I was about 11 that I was a twin. It was news to me.<br> I remeber the way I found out, my older brother told me that I was a twin.</p> <p>We were born in 1962, our mother did not know she was having twins till she had a x-ray for something else and hold and behold there were 2 in there. When mam delivered us, the twin was born first and was stillborn. The hospital took the baby from the room and that was the last mam saw it. Then i was born, perfect with 10 toes and fingers.</p> <p>I asked my mother about this and she confirmed that I had been a twin. I asked about the sex of the baby and she told me that she did not know. Well, I did not say anything more but through out the years I kept asking and got the same answer. Once she told me to ask her oldest brother cuase he probaly knew. I did not ask him and in later life he died and my chane had gone.My mother was upset that I kept asking but I wanted to know but did not.</p> <p>Well time went on and I moved to the USA and took holiday to England. On one holiday, the family met me in Gatwick airport and we set off for home. On the M1 at ahalfway house, we were having a baon butty and out of the blue, my nephew stated that the twin was a boy. I looked at mam and she did not say anything after I asked "How come he knows the sex but I do not know" I was mad and upset by this and decided not to ask anymore.</p> <p>Now, I am seeing a doctor regarding issues I have had over a long period of time. Anger and hate had built up for years because of crap that happened to me and the twin's sex. I came to the realization that I hated her and manifested as anger which I kept inside but could not release it. Working with the doctor, he made me thing about what do I want from my moter and all I want is for her to tell me personally the sex of the baby and closure may happen.</p> <p>Not knowing the sew of the twin, I have felt hat I am not a complete person. I can not really explain why I feel like this. I have often thought of what the twin would look like and what we would be doing? Would I be in America or n England? Who knows?</p> <p>One day I may ask my mother agian and explain to her my feelings about all this and finally get closure.</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/08/23/twins~2854678/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-08-22:/2007/08/22/questioning_one_s_sexuality~2848494/doddified2007-08-22T03:17:15+02:002007-08-22T03:17:15+02:00 <p>Over the past year a friend of mine as been questionong his sexuality.</p> <p>It all came to a head when his wife found out that he had been looking at gay porn on the internet. When she questioned him on it, he did not deny it and said that he did not want her to find out like she did.</p> <p>He spoke to his wife and told her that he was bisexual but she does not believe in bi; you are either straight or gay she told him. He came to the conclusion that he was probably gay but was having mixed feelings about it. He had not experimented with men but wanted to. He had been admiring men and women too but was looking more at men. </p> <p>They talked about it and they separated for a while for him to work out what he wanted in his life, marriage or divorce. Being by himself, he had time to think and look inwards at what he really wanted in life. He did go to gay bars to try out the gay scene but felt uncomfortable being there. He did talk to guys and were interested in them and wanted to have sex with them. On one occasion, he did go with a guy but did not go into too much detail with me. He said that he did enjoy it and would do it again.<br> Which he did? No details were given to me, he did not want to go into too much detail.</p> <p>In the mean time, he was still talking with his wife to work on their marriage and he was opening up to her about his sexuality and tings he never told her before.</p> <p>After a couple of months, he finally realised that he was more Bisexual then gay and told his wife this and she finally accepted him for this. They are now back together and communicating with each other.</p> <p>I am happy for him and his wife. She is a beautiful woman and did not need to treated like this and he knows that! </p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/08/22/questioning_one_s_sexuality~2848494/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-08-20:/2007/08/20/hurricane_dean~2838094/doddified2007-08-20T12:01:10+02:002007-08-20T12:01:10+02:00 <p>I hope that no one has relatives and friends that are in the Caribbean.<br> With the hurricane growing strength, I hope that they have all managed to get home. </p> <p>Living in Arkansas, we have had remnants of hurricanes going thru the state, especially from Hurricane Katrina. We had lots of rain and wind from it. Nothing like in New Orleans and the Gulf Shores.</p> <p>Hurricane David looks like it is going toward Mexico, but who knows what Mother Nature could do to turn it towards the USA. It was a category 4 from the last time I looked on the internet with winds in excess of 140 mph. </p> <p>I know in the UK we have had gale for winds but not that strong.<br> What about the Tornadoes that Britain has had this year. The weather around the world is getting weird. It can not get weirding than it is now.</p> <p>What do you all think about it?</p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/08/20/hurricane_dean~2838094/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-08-16:/2007/08/16/what_is_time~2815883/doddified2007-08-16T03:33:21+02:002007-08-16T03:33:21+02:00 <p>What is time? Who really knows. We all know that there are 24 hours in a day, 60 minutes in a hour, 60 seconds in a minute but who in the heck decided all this. So why do people have to time you or even themselves. If you do not get what you want to do, leave it o the next day.<br> I bloody hate it when people time you in doing things. For example: going to the shop, bathing or even taking a crap, getting dressed, etc etc.<br> Time should be cherished and loved. We are on this planet for one life so live happily and have a great smashing bonking time.</p> <p>Peace and happiness to all.<img src="/img/smilies/icon_lol.gif" alt=":DD" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/08/16/what_is_time~2815883/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>tag:britnurse.blog.co.uk,2007-08-11:/2007/08/11/hot_and_hotter_in_arkansas_usa~2789544/doddified2007-08-11T05:27:47+02:002007-08-11T05:27:47+02:00 <p>MAn, the weather is damn hot in Arkansas at the moment. I have lived here for over 18 years and this is the hottest it has been. THe forecast is for the temperature to be over 100 degrees for the next week.<br> What is the weather like from around the world? <img src="/img/smilies/icon_redface.gif" alt=":oops:" class="middle" border="0"></p> <p> <small> <a href="http://britnurse.blog.co.uk/2007/08/11/hot_and_hotter_in_arkansas_usa~2789544/#comments">Comments</a> </small> </p>