Yorkshire Lad in America

I saw on the net today about the 11 year old boy,Rhys who was shot and killed by a teenager. He would have been 12 this month.
Has the country gone mad or what...
Where are people getting there weapons from?
When I was growing up, you felt safe but as time went on, it began to get
bad but not as it is now. AND what is the government doing about it?

Man, I can not think about it any more......

As I sit and plonder what gender my twin was at birth I have really not gotten a definite answer from anyone especially my mother.

When I was 11; ths was when I found out that I was a twin. One of my brother's told me. I thought that he was joking till i asked my mam about it and they said that I had a twin but it was stillborn. I asked was it a boy or a girl, but did not get an answer from my mam. She did not want to talk anout it.

As time went on and as teenager, I kept asking and still got no real answer, though someone told me they thought it had been a boy. Yet again, I asked my mam and still no real answer. At one point, my mother said that one of my uncle's knew and to ask him. At this point, i dropped it and left it alone. I was going to ask my uncle but he passed away, so I did not get the chance.

I emigrated to hte USA and have been here 19 years and now the gender of the twin as surfaced again. One year, I went home on holiday and my family picked me up from Gatwick airport. We stopped at a halfway house on the M1 and was having breakfast,when my nephew who was about 11 then, chirped up and out of the blue said my twin was a boy. I looked at my mother and said " I does he know and I do not." She said nothing.

I am seeing a psychologist for and the twin thing came up and was asked by him What do you want from your mother? I said that I just want her to tell me the gender and thai is all. If, she says she does not know then I will have to accept her answer and get on with life. I will probably not ask my mam again.

Since 11 I have felt like I am not a complete person because of all this.
If it was a boy, we could have be identical. My GOd, another one of me walking around arrrgghh!!!!

I will not make you suffer any longer about my saga, BUT turinig 45 today is a happy and not so happy day for me. I will have fun anyway with my wife and kids.

Today, I turned 45. Another yesr older and wiser. Well older but no necessarily any wiser. My short term memory is f#^%ed up but long term, I can remeber things way back in the past.
Alzheimers must be settling in. LOL

Have a great day everyone.

TEN FIRSTS
First best friend: A girl called Michelle when i was 5
First screen name: did not have one
First Pet: Was a mongrel called Rex
First Piercing: Never wanted to pierce my body but if I did it would be my belly button
First Crush: A girl named Wanda. She had hair like David Bowie
First Record: My first record was an ABBA album back in the 70's
First Love: Lisa - My frst best friend- Michelle

NINE LASTS
Last alcoholic beverage: Corona Light
Last car ride: today on the way to work.
Last movie seen: The Queen
Last phone call made: Tonight, spoke to my wife and kids
Last CD Played: Queen Greatest Hits
Last Bubble bath: Can not remember it was that long ago
Last time you cried: I cried in like a big baby at the Psychologist office (I am abit crazy)

EIGHT HAVE YOU EVERS
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: No
Have you ever been arrested: No!
Have you ever skinny dipped: No
Have you ever been on TV: Yes
Have you ever kissed someone and then regretted it: Yep I have
Have you ever had a sex dream about someone: Yes I have.
Have you ever had sex? Who does not have sex? YES

SEVEN THINGS YOU ARE WEARING
1. blue scrub bottoms
2. white boxer shorts
3. t-shirt
4. my bifocal glassess (an getting old)
5. white socks
6. my wedding ring
7. work shoes

SIX THINGS YOU'VE DONE TODAY
1. awakened by my 4 years old son whos does not have concept of time.
2. turned on computer
3. took a shower
4. brushed my teeth
5. had dinner with the familty
6. Went to work

FIVE FAVOURITE THINGS IN NO ORDER
1. reading
2. Listening to music
3. sleep
4. tickling my kids
5. loving the wife

FOUR PEOPLE YOU CAN TELL ALMOST ANYTHING TO
1. My wife
2. Marie
3. Dr. Long
4. My sister

THREE CHOICES
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: cold
3. Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Win lots of money
2. Find out what sex my twin was.... which is another story

ONE THING YOU REGRET
Even though I like living in hte USA, I regretted leaving my England and West Yorkshire.

Thank you, Phoenix

Did any one read in the news about the President of the USA saying in a speech that Nelson Mandela was dead. Nelson is still alive. Bush is such a ditz that he always balls us what he is saying. Who is writing is speeches? Somebody better tell them to keep on doing the speeches, so Bush can look like a bigger idiot when he leaves the White House I did not vote for him in the last election and thank god he can not run for office again.
Hope he will be the last Bush in the White House?

I have decided to rename my blog to Yorkshire Lad in America

Hope everyone is having a smashi time where ever you live in this big blue world.

Earlier this year some get stole one of our ATM credit/debit card. They used it and took over $500 from it. In the end, we were $1000 in the red and could not keep up with the bills etc, we had to claim bankruptcy.
In general, keep your cards safe and make sure if you use them that it is handed back to you.

Two Names You Go By:
1. Stevie
2. Daddy

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1 glassess
2 my scrubs, am at work

Two Things You Would Want (or have) in a Relationship:
1 Love
2 fun

Two Things You Should Do:
1 Listen more to my family
2 take a long holiday

Two Things You Want Very Badly At The Moment:
1 For work to finish
2 To have a new car

Two Things You Did Last Night:
1 Worked till 11pm
2 Then went home and crashed

Two Things You Hated Today:
1 My son waking up between 6-7am
2 going to work

Two People You Last Talked To:
1 my wife
2 Monica (work)

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1 Cleaning up the back yard
2 Cleaning the front yard

Two longest recent car rides:
1 Little Rock to Memphis
2 Little Rock to St Louis

Two Favourite Holidays: (of all time?)
1 Brazil
2 Gambia

Two Favourite Beverages:
1 coffee
2 diet caffeine coke (doctor's orders yack!!)

Two Things That Would Surprise You About Me:
1 I am shy at first and then open up when I get to know you.
2 I shook hands with the ex President of Mexico

Two Jobs I Have Had In My Life:
1 Student
2 RGN

Two Movies I would watch over and over:
1 Harry Potter movies
2 Sister Act

Two Places I have lived:
1 Leeds
2 Barnsley

Two Favourite kinds of foods:
1 Mexican
2 Indian

Two Places I'd rather be right now:
1 home
2 A tropical island

Today,I saw my Psychologist and we talked about anger that I have built up over the years and that I am like a time bomb ready to go off. I hold everything in,instead of talking about what is bothering me. I have always done this and am trying to open up slowly and let people know what I am feeling BUT it is hard for me to do it. When I was growing up, if we ever talked back to our parents you can bet that we were in big trouble for it and we got disciplined in one way or another. At times when I have told people what I am feeling I have been belittled and told that I am being daft.
So, I began to hold things in and internalised everything that now I can not release as I do not know what I will be like, or what will come out of my mouth or the bomb will go off. If I got upset with what somebody told me or I disagreed with them, I would not tell them what i was feeling. By processing everything, I would become angry and keep it inside and then let it slide till the next time.
So, I am having to, like I wrote above, anm having to slowly open up and to see haow it goes. Normally, when I do say what I am feeling to someone and it has built up over a few days etc, it comes out as anger and am being a smart arse.

If any one out there as the same thing going on with them, what do you or are you trying to solve it.

Life is short and we need to live it happily, enjoy the things around us and love the people you love the most, like wives, kids family etc.